Thursday 23 January 2020 23:15
One of the options I need to consider to earn some money is making video content for a monetised YouTube channel, and with this in mind I’ve spent today delving a little deeper into some facts and figures about Google (owners of YouTube – or rather their parent company, Alphabet, are), and also Facebook et al. The facts are pretty brutal, and the figures are immense.
Even more since all the scandal over Cambridge Analytica and the manipulation of voters using data garnered without anyone’s explicit permission through Facebook, we all know that Google and Facebook and the rest (Instagram, Twitter, Pinterest…) are advertising companies. They harvest our data and sell it to the highest bidder to do with what they will. We in our innocence post about our likes and dislikes, our buying habits, our marital status, our jobs, our location, our friends, and by doing so we offer ourselves as the products they sell to their customers: the advertisers, and anyone else – political parties, extremists, criminals, anyone – who’ll pay top dollar.
On all these sites, the users are being manipulated. Where YouTube’s concerned, while the users may be the viewers, the content creators are providing the means for that manipulation, wooed with the promise of some monetary recompense. That presents a dilemma for me. Do I feel I can ethically jump on the bandwagon? The more I read today, the louder the questions grew.
Is it really OK to say, “Everybody else is getting rich, so why shouldn’t I?” Am I happy to take some sort of moral high ground in declaring that I’m deeply suspicious of and concerned about the influence that big business has on our world – and then jump in and say, “Ooh, I’ll have some of that, thank you!”? I haven’t yet come to a definitive conclusion on that one. Maybe it depends how hungry I am.
That brings me to something that has been brought to the fore today too. Not so much a realisation – because I haven’t lived and worked for all these years and not known myself well enough to realise already – but more a reminder: that I’m really not bothered about money.
Oh sure, I recognise the necessity of some money, that’s the whole raison d’etre of this blog, the knowledge that I need to find a way to make some money. But it’s that word “some”. I just want, and I realise I’ve always been perfectly happy with, ‘enough’. Enough to live the life I want – which blessedly is a very simple one – and a bit put by for inevitable emergencies. It’s dawned on me today, that being happy with ‘enough’ can actually render it harder to make it.
So it may continue to cause me a problem that I just don’t have that ‘fire in my belly’ to make money. I have a ‘fire in my belly’ to do the things I love (like writing and drawing and making and teaching), and to do them well, but that fire is barely a glowing ember with regard to making money. It certainly handicapped me in running my own business. There were times when I could have grown the business but I wasn’t interested, and when pricing my services that I would say, “Oh no £X is too much, £Y will be fine.”. It could be mistaken for a lack of self worth, but I don’t think it is, I just don’t have that need to have more than, well, than I need, and neither do I have even a glimmer of need to impress anybody. I have a strong belief that a fair wage should be paid for a job, and would stick to my guns on those grounds, but then that also applies to ridiculously high wages being far from fair.
Being happy with ‘enough’ though, is rather frowned upon in our society these days.
Another strand has come from today’s research, an entirely separate strand concerning a story – a fiction – that has been calling to me to be written for a few years. I keep ignoring it, not wanting to get swept up in something that I feel is potentially dark and depressing, or worse. It seems to want me to write it though, and today it’s been tugging ever harder at my sleeve. I don’t know if I’ll get away with ignoring it forever, but I’m going to keep trying for now.
On a lighter note – hmm, perhaps lighter – I was rendered speechless when, venturing into YouTube’s ‘For Kids’ app, I found myself presented with videos by, or perhaps it’s fairer to say about, an eight year old rather precocious boy named Ryan, who has joyfully jumped on the bandwagon and has apparently made a great many MILLIONS of dollars from videos about him, his toy reviews, and his life with his very young parents. “Why would anyone watch this?!” I cried, as I was dished up almost 20 minutes of Ryan and his parents on an aeroplane, from their home (the US? Canada?) to the UK; in Business Class. “Look, we’re stepping into the aeroplane.” “Look, this is Ryan eating.” “Look, this is Ryan sleeping.” W.T.F?… I repeated my question to the air, “Why would anyone watch this?!”, and then it dawned on me: probably for the same reason I was – because they couldn’t believe it. Kerching! Gotcha.
You can read more about Ryan in Wikipedia. I find it all truly frightening.